Cargo: Chapter 2

Chapter 1
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

“Reginald, a young boy aged twelve years, was caught stealing medicine denied to his ailing mother, on account that the doctors thought the chances of her recovery were too slim. This was his second offense, the first being theft of food the previous year, and he was sent to compost yesterday evening. His father, also named Reginald, fought the guards in an attempt to rescue him, and he too was sentenced to death. This marks the end of the Cooper line.”

– History of The Empress: Book Fourteen

It had been a month since the island encounter, and life had quickly gone back to normal. Arthur was in the library and had just set the theater troupe up with the Canterbury Tales, and they were already busy running through the script. He’d already seen this play five times, but there were only a few different scripts aboard to use. 

Gerald, one of the older mechanics, came in with four teenagers. Arthur greeted them, “Hey Gerald, I’ve got the welding manuals you’ll need for today ready, and a table prepared for you.”

Gerald replied, “Thanks Arthur, we’ll be in here the next two days to get these kids trained up. Then hopefully they’ll be some work for them to do this week so they get some experience.”

“Not too much work I hope,” Arthur said with a laugh. “I like it when the ship is in one piece.” Gerald took the kids over to the table and prepped them for his lesson. There was nothing else to do for the moment, so Arthur returned to reading a book on pet care. Pets didn’t exist anymore, but he enjoyed getting glimpses into what life was like in the old world. He read on for the next hour, Gerald’s voice droning on in the background, various outbursts as the actors practiced their lines. As he was turning one of the last few pages, a loud boom roared from beneath him. Arthur, startled, dropped his book and gripped his desk as a huge vibration spread from the floor and rose into the ceiling.

“SHIT!” Yelled Gerald as the tremors rocked him and he fell to the floor. Arthur, shaken, stumbled towards Gerald to try and help him. He was already being picked up by his students as he reached him.

“You okay?” Asked Arthur as he helped him into a seat.

Gerald groaned, “Aye, what the hell was that?” He put his hands out on the table to steady himself and noticed he was holding a crumpled half of a paper in each hand. Arthur grabbed them and frantically tried to straighten each half out. “Arthur, there are bigger things to worry about, the ship’s been hit by something.” Scolded Gerald.

Arthur sighed heavy. “Right…. right.” He collected himself and looked around. The library seemed undamaged, and the shaking had stopped. He turned to the students and asked if they were okay. They all nodded. “Well, best thing to do is wait here until a guard lets us know it’s safe.”

Gerald had also gained back some composure, and responded in disgust, “You coward. We need to protect the ship.” He stood himself back up, though still shaky on his legs. “Come on boys, let’s move out.”

Arthur hated confrontation. “Uh, no…no, no one can leave.” He breathed in and continued, “The hallway could be flooded, or…or there could a fire. We can’t risk anything happening to the library.”

Gerald blew air out his nose. “Well you stay here then, but we’re taking action, that’s our duty. Let’s go!” He walked towards the door. His students were hesitant but started following. Arthur knew he couldn’t let him open that door, he hurried past Gerald and stood in front of the door. “Arthur, I’ll only tell you once, you get out of my way.”

Gerald was intimidating, he was older but still muscular, especially compared to Arthur’s pudgy self. He summoned what courage he could and stood his ground. “Jerry, I am the department head of this library and I order you to stand down.” The threat was clear, disobeying an order from a department head was a punishable offense, this was drilled into everyone from childhood. The students knew it well and returned to their seats, although they were all visibly uncomfortable.

Gerald’s eyes were cold, intense. Arthur could tell he didn’t want to take orders from the librarian, especially when he believed he was being stopped from doing his duty. They both stood there for several moments, staring at each other. Arthur felt ready to start trembling but kept his composure. Finally, Gerald relaxed his shoulders and sighed, and took a step back. Arthur turned around and started to lock the door. “Okay, we’ll all wait here until we get word that it’s safe.” Before he could turn the lock, Arthur was grabbed by his shoulder and jerked into the floor.

He looked up and saw Gerald throw the door open. The moment he did, thick black smoke erupted into the room. It was only a few seconds before he couldn’t even see a few inches in front of his face. He inhaled and instantly felt his throat burn and started violently coughing. He stood up and brought his shirt up over his nose, which helped some. He tried to call out to the others, but just wound up coughing more. He tried to think of what he could do to help, he felt for the door and started banging on the metal with his fist, trying to orient the others to his position. It took a minute, but he felt someone pass by. He reached out and helped guide them one by one out the door.

Soon no one else was coming, he had counted nine people leave, but there had been ten others in the library. He wasn’t willing to leave anyone in here alone. He wandered out to try and find the last person, but soon became disoriented. His eyes were watering badly, and he had lost his sense of where the door was. His shirt fell down and before he could fix it, he accidentally inhaled another big breath of raw smoke. He started another coughing fit, and not stopping he fell onto his knees. He couldn’t see, and he was having a hard time breathing. He felt his consciousness slipping, and as he was going out he felt himself being pulled upwards…

Arthur came to on the deck. The sirens were going off, and there was a mess of people rushing every direction. He looked up and saw large plumes of smoke rising into the air. He coughed as he sat up. It was better, but his lungs were still raw and his eyes burned.

A doctor finished up with one of the theater girls and came over to Arthur. She gave him some water and checked him over. “You look awful.” She remarked.

“I know, the smoke probably didn’t help either.” He tried to laugh but it hurt, then he asked, “Is everyone okay?”

“For the most part. You and Gerald got the worst of it of everyone who’s gotten out so far. Gerald collapsed as soon as he dragged you outside. He’s stable but still unconscious.” She replied. Arthur couldn’t believe Gerald had opened that door, who knows what’s happened to his library. A knot formed in his stomach as he thought over the possibility that their entire collection could be ruined. The doctor finished checking him over, gave him some water, and said. “I think you’re going to be alright, come find me if you’re still having trouble breathing after a while. I’ve got more people to help.” She quickly stood up and jogged over to someone else who had just been dragged out of the ship.

Arthur tried standing, his legs were weak but he managed to pull himself up using a railing. He lifted the canteen up for a drink, it was soothing on his sore throat. He chugged half of it before he forced himself to stop and save the rest. As he looked around again, he spotted Gerald’s body, it looked like he was starting to stir. Arthur made his way along the railing until he reached him, just as his eyes strained to open. Gerald groaned and Arthur helped him to sit up. Gerald tried to say something but went into a coughing fit.

“Here, take my water.” Said Arthur as he handed him his canteen.

Gerald drank slowly, with much more restraint than Arthur had had, then cleared his throat and spit onto the deck. “Thank you, Arthur.” He said, then looked away and after a short silence, continued. “I shouldn’t have opened that door, I was foolish and put everyone in that room in danger. I’m sorry.”

Arthur thought about the harm Gerald might have caused to his library, and responded. “Well…I don’t know If I can forgive you right now.” He paused for a second, then added. “But thank you for coming back for me.”

Gerald nodded and said, “That’s fair, I still owe you for what I’ve done.” With that they both just sat for a while, passing the canteen back and forth until it was empty, and watching the situation progress. Security had donned protective suits and masks to find anyone still and pull them out. The suits were shiny and clean, it was the first time they’d been pulled from storage and used. They didn’t stay that way for long as they went into the smoke to find survivors. Arthur felt sick to his stomach as he watched everything unfold. The first people they brought up were passed out but still breathing, like him and Gerald had been. Then the bodies came, one by one, covered in burns and blackened, all found in the garden. He hoped they had at least died quickly. Arthur wondered what that meant for their main source of food. After a couple hours the smoke had mostly stopped, and those hiding out in the floors below the garden were pulled out, all fine and intact, as the smoke hadn’t affected them. Power was redirected to the ventilation system and the remaining smoke was pumped out of the ship. Thomas and Obadiah were in the middle of everything the whole time, giving orders and directing crews. After everyone had been accounted for and the situation was under some modicum of control, Thomas came over to Arthur.

If the captain was at all stressed about the ordeal, he wasn’t showing it. “It’s safe to go back inside now, I’m going to send you to the library to take stock of the situation and do damage control, I’ll send some helpers with you, feel free to direct them as you choose.” Said Thomas.

“Yes captain, right away.” Responded Arthur. He got up, feeling much better now, and started making his way back inside. Thomas motioned at a group and a small crew started following him.

Arthur tried to mentally prepare himself as he approached the library. The hallway walls were stained black from the smoke. It covered the lights too, and he could barely see as they made their way. He saw the entrance; the door was still open. He gasped as he walked inside. Soot was everywhere. He took a couple deep breaths to keep control of his emotions. He came upon some loose papers that had been left on the table, completely black. He tried to rub out the black but it was baked in. Arthur couldn’t stop a couple tears from coming out at this point. He went to the shelves and took stock of the literature there. There were several sections that were mostly single unprotected pages that had suffered the same fate as those left on the table. Their charts and some of the more important documents were stored in chests and had been protected from the smoke. He pulled a book off the shelf, the exposed edges were black, but upon opening the book, the contents were fine. He pulled several other books and all were the same, stained on the outside but fine on the inside. He noticed some of the covers he was able to smudge the soot off. He gave orders to the crew assigned to him to gather dry cloth and to very carefully work through the books and clean off what they could. He started to catalogue in his mind what had been completely destroyed. He was familiar with many of the volumes, and many people become familiar enough with particular works they use for work, that he thought they should be able to use their paper to partially recreate some of what they lost. This was still the worst thing to ever happen to the library; but he was relieved that it wasn’t quite as bad as he initially feared.

They worked all through the night, and most of the rest of the ship was tasked with some sort of assignment as well. Arthur was exhausted by daybreak, but department leaders were to report to the garden to meet about the situation. Arthur still had no idea what had actually happened.

Arthur stepped inside what was the garden, a huge room taking up several floors below deck. Every surface was black, not a single plant in sight. All the department leaders were standing in a circle, faces sullen. Thomas spoke. “I see we’re all here. It was a long and demanding night for all of us, and I imagine we’re going to have many long nights going forward. Let’s go ahead and take stock of the situation. Denise.”

Denise, the head of gardening, gave her synopsis of the situation. “An explosion occurred in the garden yesterday afternoon. We don’t know exactly what caused the explosion, but believe the chemicals used for the hydroponics were improperly mixed. The explosion completely destroyed some of our equipment, but between what’s in storage and what we can repair, we should be able to get the garden working again, though probably not back to full capacity. None of our plants survived the blast.” Her voice cracked and she paused. There was some trembling in her hands, but she kept her composure and continued. “Nor did anyone who was working within the garden when it happened. We have seeds that survived in storage, but it will take at least a year to get anywhere close to what we were producing, and at least six months before we will have any new food to harvest at all.”

Obadiah spoke, “Half of us will starve if that’s true. Do we have no faster solutions?”

 “Nothing, we didn’t plan for something this catastrophic. We have food reserves, but even with heavy rationing it will run out well before we can grow enough to feed everyone. We could maybe go two months before we will have to choose who to feed and who to starve.”

 Thomas asked Jules, the head of fishing, “Is there any way to increase what food we can take from the ocean?”

Jules replied, “You know the answer to that Captain. We already take everything we can. We’re lucky to find the fish and plants we do.”

 While they talked, a terrible thought had been nagging at Arthur. After summoning enough courage he spoke up. “I have an idea, and I know no one here will like it. What if we were to go ashore, and find fresh plants to transplant into our new system, so we can resume harvesting right away.”

A flash of anger appeared on Thomas’ face. “Arthur, you know we can never go ashore. We are the last of the human race, what you are suggesting is a fool’s errand, one that would kill us all.”

Arthur stammered to respond, but Obadiah spoke instead, “I think it’s worth considering Captain. We can take precautions, send only a small team ashore to get what we need. We have the lifeboats; the ship doesn’t have to get close to shore.”

Thomas responded again, yelling this time. “And what if the team comes back to the ship and brings The Bug with them? The water is where we are safe, I will starve half the ship before I sentence every single person to death. I will hear no more of it.”

Obadiah stood silent for a moment before resigning. “Of course, Captain.” Arthur didn’t dare push it either.

Thomas breathed in deep through his nostrils, then returning to his normal restrained and dignified voice, spoke again. “Right, Denise, go ahead and make use of whatever resources you need to get the garden up and running as soon as possible, that is our highest priority. Jules, I want you to form a committee to brainstorm ideas to increase our food supply. The smallest chance is worth pursuing right now, our lives depend on it. Arthur, how is the library holding up?

Arthur got his composure back and tried to respond matter-of-factly. “Better than I expected, most of our collection is intact, if not dirty. Although I don’t know how the smoke will affect the books’ integrity in the long run. A decent chunk of documents were effectively destroyed, but I think many of them could be partially replaced from memory using our paper reserves.”

“You are authorized to access our paper, however, only for documents with utility. Unfortunately, stories and poems aren’t worth the paper.” Arthur nodded in agreement, saddened, though it was the response he expected. Thomas continued. “I spoke to Gerald, who admitted to opening the library door against Arthur’s orders, causing the damage. This was corroborated by others in the library at the time. Though it was his first offense, the consequences of his decision were grave, and I ordered him to be executed overnight.” Arthur and several others gasped; Gerald was well known on the ship. Obadiah looked away. Arthur felt sick. Gerald had harmed his library, but he didn’t want the man to die. Although, he wondered if he wouldn’t have been executed soon anyway. If Thomas had to start making decisions about who gets food, a prisoner would surely be the first to go.

Thomas went down the line with each department head, confirming their plan of action going forward and the priorities of their resources. As he was wrapping up he said, “Now we all know this a most terrible situation, the hardest tribulation we’ve ever faced in our history. We’re all going to do everything we can to save our people. Everyone on this ship needs to pull together, the most united we’ve ever been. For now, I don’t want the full gravity of this predicament to make way to the people. For anyone who asks, with heavy rationing we will have enough food until we make repairs, as long as everyone does their part. You’re all in charge for making sure your people stay in good morale. At the same time, you all need to make decisions on who we will keep and who we won’t.” This statement caught their attention. “As awful as it is, it seems we can’t keep everyone, and the sooner we remove mouths to feed, the more people we can save. Now let’s all go do our jobs.”

The atmosphere was even gloomier than when they started. Despair was on everyone’s faces. Even Captain Thomas, ever the stoic, had some anguish in his eyes. Everyone went to their duties, preparing their lies for the people. Arthur returned to his smoke-stained library. His help had been reassigned elsewhere on the ship, so for the first time since the explosion he had a moment alone. He sat down to clean his books, and wept.

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Cargo: Chapter 1

Estimated Reading Time: 45-50 Minutes

Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

“As the last known ship on the water, the people have stopped calling the ship by her name ‘The Empress’ and now simply refer to her as ‘The Ship’.”

– History of The Empress: Book Twelve

Arthur woke up to sirens. He focused his attention as he shook off the daze of sleep. The blaring was coming in groups of three; land had been spotted! He rolled out of bed and quickly got dressed, eager to see it. Stepping outside, several other neighbors were rushing out of their containers as well. He joined them in running through the metal pathways to the side of the ship.

There was quite a crowd gathered as he got near the railing. It was hard to see between all the shifting heads, but he could make out an island just a couple miles away. He was surprised by how near they were, Arthur had never been so close to land. Others had caught on as well.

“Are we safe?” “How could they let us get so close?” “The sun just rose and it was a cloudy night, you can’t expect them to have reacted sooner.” “You can almost make out the trees, wow.” “What if we had beached? We could all be dead right now!” “We’re still plenty far, navigation knows what they’re doing.”

Arthur turned his attention from the crowd and studied the island more. It really looked quite beautiful, glistening sand melding into a thick forest. He was a little sad this would be the closest he would ever get to it. The riggers had already released the sails on the side of the ship, and they were turning away. He watched for a while longer. People slowly started to leave as the island got smaller and smaller. 

Just as he turned to walk back home a messenger approached him. “Arthur! There you are. Captain wants you at the bridge.”

“I knew something would happen on my day off, I’ll head up. Thanks for letting me know.”

 “My pleasure.” The courier disappeared into the maze of cargo containers and Arthur jogged to the bridge castle . The bridge was up several flights of stairs, and he was short of breath as he made it to the top. Opening the door, he noticed the view of the ship through the large window that wrapped the bridge. Rows upon rows of cargo containers topped with solar panels; little people weaving in and out. For how big it seemed from the main level, their world seemed much smaller against the backdrop of the open ocean. Just a pile of metal boxes floating on the water.

All the department heads were already there, caught up in conversation. As the librarian, he was technically a department head too, though he only had himself to manage. 

Captain Thomas saw Arthur and motioned him over. “Thanks for coming Arthur. We were just discussing the island pass from this morning, we were all quite surprised.”

First Lieutenant Obadiah added, “Our understanding was that we were at least sixty miles from land, so to be within only a few miles of an island at daybreak was very concerning.”

Arthur responded, “Our records don’t show us getting that close to land since we sent the last expedition 200 years ago.” Arthur took in a breath, as he was still winded. “I heard a lot of scared voices gathered by the railing.”

Thomas replied, “Yes, we’ll have to hold a town hall to calm everyone. For now, I’d like to record this event and review our charts so we can recalculate our heading. Would you take us to the library Arthur?”

“Of course, Captain,” said Arthur. He rather he had been sent to meet them in the library in the first place, but there was no use in griping about it now. The group made their way downstairs. The bridge was the top level and the library located just below the main deck. The library had been built into the center of the ship to make sure their records would be as safe as possible. Having arrived Arthur unlocked the door and welcomed everybody inside. They each took a place around one of the tables while Arthur laid out their charts. They reviewed their position and heading, and concluded that they were mostly correct in their position, but that the island they passed had been previously undiscovered. The map was updated, and their current plan reconfirmed.

Arthur put away the charts and unlocked a second door in the back. Arthur didn’t have a reason to go in this room often, but it was his favorite room in the ship. He opened the door and took a moment to take it in. Among storing their historical documents and most precious books, this room contained the ship’s entire supply of unused paper. Arthur loved the idea that they could take these blank slates and turn them into something new. But outside of occasions like these, nothing new would ever be written. This paper’s usage was entirely pragmatic. They couldn’t afford to waste it on the creation of new stories or plays. Once it was gone, it was gone.

He picked up the historical log. They were on the fifteenth book capturing the ship’s history, and it was nearly full. His grandfather had started this one nearly sixty years ago, and he would be the one to finish it and start a new one. This book has taken the longest to write of any of the history books so far. The first ten years of the ship’s history produced the first seven books, but as time progressed, they saw less and less other boats. The rest of humanity died out and the only things to write about was what happened on the ship, and leadership has done their best to make sure there is as little to write about as possible. The last event was from eight months ago, when a man had been caught stealing from the garden. It was his second offense, which meant he had been executed and sent to compost.

After grabbing fresh ink and paper, He sat down and recorded the captain’s words describing today’s events. Captain Thomas kept things dry and factual as usual, noting how close they came to the island, the time at which it was sighted, and the addition of the island to our charts. He did make a note that the populace was upset by the event, but that there was no reason for alarm.

 The captain finished and then said, “We had an exciting morning, but it’s time we all returned to our duties.” Everyone started shuffling out, but Thomas and Obadiah stayed behind. Thomas spoke to Arthur, “Thank you for facilitating today’s writing, I’m aware you were supposed to be enjoying a resting day.”

“Oh, it was no trouble Captain,” Arthur replied. “It’s not like we planned on nearly hitting an island.”

“No, but we were lucky today, I fear what would have happened had we beached. Our position is perilous enough without land sneaking up on us on a cloudy night.”

Obadiah chimed in, “The people are riled up as you heard. We are going to hold a town hall meeting tonight and wanted you to share a story from the ship’s history, something that speaks to the importance of unity and trust. Stories help us stay glued together I think.”

Thomas spoke up again. “Indeed. Unity is important, and we can’t function if people question the capabilities of the leadership. I think The Ark incident would do well for the message Arthur.”

Arthur said, “I’d be glad to, I know that story well enough, I can prepare something by tonight.”

“Thank you so much Arthur,” said Thomas. “And I apologize again for working you when you’re supposed to be resting. I’ll see to it that you have another resting day to replace today.” Thomas and Obadiah left, and Arthur went to the room in the back to review the histories and prepare the story.


Everyone gathered at the bow of the ship for the town hall. It was the only open space that could accommodate everyone aboard. There was a platform at the very front of the ship where Captain Thomas, Obadiah, and Arthur stood together, overlooking the crowd. Arthur felt out of place being showcased right next to the two officers. The captain was stately and self-assured; there was a quiet certainty in every movement he made and word he spoke. Although he was pushing sixty, he was still fit and in good health. The Lieutenant was in his mid-thirties, only a couple of years older than Arthur, but in much better shape, and possessing much more charisma and confidence than him. Arthur felt very unimpressive standing there on the stage.

Thomas stepped forward and started his speech. “We’ve all had a rousing morning. Many of you are worried about how close we came to land today. The island we saw had not been previously known on our charts, but we were never in any danger of beaching. We saw it at daybreak with plenty of room to maneuver, and we would have picked it up on our instruments if we had gotten any closer.” Arthur knew that wasn’t true, many of the ship’s instruments had been damaged over time, and nothing they can still use would have helped them. But that wasn’t public knowledge, it was a good lie. Thomas went on for a while longer, until he got to where Arthur came in. “Now I think it’s good for us to remember our history, to remember why it’s important that we trust and cooperate with each other. Our librarian, Arthur, will be sharing a tale from our past. If you would Arthur.”

Arthur stepped up to the front of the stage, every eye upon him, waiting for how he would inspire them. He always had a tough time getting his voice to carry, he just hoped they would be able to hear him. “Thank you, Captain. Uh, this story is from one hundred and fifty years ago, of The Ark, the last ship that we ever encountered.” Some murmurs swept through the crowd, he hoped it meant they were interested. “We had responded to their radio for help, the first message we’d received in ten years, and the last one we ever had. The last of their ship was disappearing under the waves as we arrived, and the survivors were waiting in their lifeboats. What had happened to their ship? Their second-in-command had convinced part of the populace that it was time they returned to land. They had recently had an accident that damaged their desalinator, and they were scared they would die of dehydration otherwise. He led a mutiny against their captain, and took over the ship. In his haste to go ashore, they disregarded safety protocols while sailing through a dangerous storm. The ship took on too much water, and they fled as it sank. Those who had participated in the mutiny were left to the sea, and the rest of the survivors were welcomed aboard and are part of our lineage today.”

“Thank you, Arthur.” Said Captain Thomas as he walked back to the front of the stage. “It’s a terrible thing when the rules that keep us safe are disregarded. We are the last of humanity, it is all our very great responsibility to keep each other alive, to protect this ship that we all call home. It can be tempting to have doubts, but it is your complete trust in me, Obadiah, your department heads, that keeps us alive and breathing. We’ve survived the ocean for three hundred years. Do your job, obey the laws, we’ll be here for three hundred more.” Captain took a step back, Obadiah started clapping. The department leads joined in, followed by the rest of the crowd.

It was clear the town hall was over, and the crowd started shuffling back towards their containers or back to their duties. Arthur was glad to get off the stage and finally head home. As he laid in his bed, he imagined what it would be like to have walked that island. To touch the sand, the trees, the dirt. The image of the beach and the forest was burned into his head. Of course, he would never know, to set foot on land was to die. All he would ever know was books and metal. 

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Kyle Has an Interview

“Kyle entered the conference room, dressed to the nines in his best suit. He eyed the lady about to interview him. She had jet black hair that rolled down like a waterfall stopping just below her shoulders. She had a slim figure, but curves in all the right places. He would be glad to work under her any day. Her full ruby lips parted and her alluring green eyes went wide in surprise.”

“What the fuck did you just say to me?” She demanded.

He stood still, realizing what he had just done. “Was that out loud?” He asked, already knowing the answer.

She stood up, a deep anger emanating from those emerald eyeballs. “That was highly inappropriate. We will not be interviewing you, get out!” She yelled the last part.

He slumped his shoulders and sighed. “I understand.” He turned around and shuffled his feet back out the door. As soon as he crossed the threshold to the hallway the door was slammed behind him.

He turned around. No, this is the time to be confident. He thought to himself. He tried to open the door again, but it had been locked. Peering in through the window, he saw her with a landline phone being held up to her ear, the other hand hurriedly dialing some unknown number. He banged on the window and shouted, “HEY! This interview isn’t over yet!” She glanced up at him, flipped him the bird, then started saying something into the phone. He pointed his finger at her and shouted again. “If you don’t hire me it’ll be the biggest mistake of your career!”

She hung up the phone and walked briskly up to the glass. Finally he had her attention. But instead of apologizing and asking him back inside, she closed the blinds! Kyle thought about what he should do. I need to go up the chain. I’ll go right to the president, he’ll admire my guts and make me his VP. He turned around to go find an elevator, but was surprised to find two security guards planted squarely in his way.

“We’re going to have to ask you to leave sir.” Stated one of them plainly.

“You need to show me some respect.” Kyle said proudly. “I’m soon to be your boss.”

They shared a tired glance, before the same guard spoke again. “Really dude?” He questioned.

“You better believe it!” Exclaimed Kyle, and he plunged forward, ready to take hold of his destiny. He expected them to step aside as he pushed between them, but instead they each grabbed one of his arms. Looks like things were about to get physical. His mind ran through similar scenes from some of his favorite movies. He knew what he had to do. In an instant he spun his body clockwise, swinging his left leg around to sweep the one guard’s legs out from under him. Curiously, as his foot connected to the back of the shin, the guard stayed standing just as he was.

“Hey, stop that!” The security guard ordered. He was stronger than he looked. Kyle turned his attention to the other guard, who was a little older, and he hoped would be weaker. He couldn’t stop a devilish grin from forming before unleashing his deadly attack. Kyle swung his head forward and headbutted him right in his stupid nose.

The older guard held his face and they both let go of his arms. Kyle turned to face them both and crossed his arms. “That’ll teach you to mess with Kyle.” He told them.

The one who had somehow survived his terrifying leg attack brought his arm up holding a small can, and pressing his pointer finger down on the top, sent a vicious cloud of pepper spray right into Kyle’s eyes. As Kyle collapsed onto his knees crying and clawing at his peepers, the guard checked on his partner. “You okay Ron?”

Ron was rubbing his nose and replied, “Yeah I’m fine, mostly just surprised me. Crazy motherfucker we came across today huh Ben?” They both glanced over at Kyle, who was still rolling on the floor, sobbing and rambling something they couldn’t make out.

Ben said. “I’m gonna have the cops come pick this guy up, let’s get him to the lobby.” They dragged him to the entrance of the building and restrained him until the police showed up.

By the time the police arrived, Kyle had regained enough composure to stop blubbering, although his eyes were still bloodshot red. He shouted at the cops as they walked up. “Officers, thank goodness. Arrest these men, they’ve assaulted me and are holding me captive.”

They both looked him over. “He attacked you guys while you were escorting him out, right?” One of the officers asked the guards.

Ben replied. “That’s right, headbutted Ron here right in the face so I had to spray him.”

“Alright well we’ll take him to the station and book him. We’ll put him in the squad car and then get your official statement for our paperwork.” They handed Kyle off to them, who was wriggling like a madman.

Kyle screamed, practically shrieking as they forced him into the cop car. “YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO ME, I’M THE PROTAGONIST!” He started to cry again. “I’M TELLING MY MOM!”

For Those Still Figuring It Out…

It’s okay to not have goals yet.

I started telling myself when I was 19 that I wasn’t going to force myself to have my shit together until I was 25. That’s allowed me to grow without pressuring myself, while acknowledging I’m going to start living more intentionally at some point. You don’t need to have anything figured out yet, but I hope you make an effort to start figuring out what you want to figure out. It’s not about accomplishing things, it’s about owning your own life. That what you do fits the image of who you want to be. You could spend every spare minute of your life just playing video games, and if you did that because you chose to because that’s what fulfilled you, then that’s a life well lived.

Especially if you’re young, don’t feel like you have to be a certain way yet, take time to learn about yourself and figure out what makes you happy and gives you purpose. Even if you’re 50, odds are you’ve got at least 30 more years left. If it took you 5 years to figure out how you want to spend the last 25, that’s still a lot of life left to live. You have the potential to be the best version of yourself, and it’s okay to ease into it. You don’t have to be perfect tomorrow.

A Quick Test.

Alright, I’ve got a test for you. I want you to open up Google Maps on your phone. Have it open? Great, now here’s your task. I want you to use it to design a poster for your favorite movie. You have five minutes, go!

Alright, time’s up, how’d you do? What do you mean Google Maps didn’t help you? It’s a highly sophisticated, powerful piece of software. It cost billions of dollars to make and maintain. I use it to get to work everyday and it never fails me. If you couldn’t figure out how to make something as simple as a poster there must be something very wrong with you. I can’t even look at you I’m so disappointed.

…Now, obviously that was ridiculous. Google Maps is great for doing what it’s designed for, getting directions and finding places to eat. but it’s not a design program, and it’s not going to help you make a poster, fix your car, or cook your dinner, though it might recommend someone to do that for you. Working harder or smarter wouldn’t have helped you do any better, because you had the wrong tool. If you had the right tool, a design program, or even just a pencil and paper, then how much effort or skill you put into it matters. But you have to have the right tool first.

What if Atoms Could Think?

What if an atom could think and perceive it’s surroundings. What would it make of the world it found itself in. It would see the other atoms around it, it might find itself attaching and detaching from other atoms. sometimes it might find itself constantly passing atoms, never staying in one place. Other times it might be stuck in one spot for long periods of time, and get to know it’s neighbors very well.

But it would be very hard for it to get a good sense of the larger system it’s a part of. It could be part of a stone, but it wouldn’t really know anything about the stone, all the atom would know is that it’s been mostly staying still for quite a long time. An atom could be part of a living cell. It would see lots of other atoms zipping by, in a wide variety of molecule formations, but it wouldn’t be able to grasp it’s part of a living creature.

It may have a much better understanding than we do of the smaller systems it can more easily perceive. It might have much better understandings than we do of how it interacts with it’s immediate neighbors, how the smaller systems of quarks and subatomic particles work together that we have a hard time grasping, maybe even smaller particles we don’t have the means to know about yet.

Likewise we may be completely ignorant of unfathomably large systems we’re members of but have no way to observe. The largest structures we know of, galaxies and clusters of galaxies, maybe the universe itself, could just be a small part of a much larger system we have no way of comprehending. We just see the other stars, galaxies, clusters, in the universe, and observe what we can about them. Just like an atom would just see other atoms and not the larger structure, we could be looking at a tiny, minuscule slice of a much bigger system and not realize it.

Human-Driven Cars Will Be The New Horse

I believe that the transition to self-driving cars in some ways will mirror going from the horse-and-carriage to the modern car.

Many people in the early 1900’s didn’t care for the automobile as it was becoming more popular, they preferred horses or walking. Eventually it became cheap enough for the common person to own one and the utility over the horse put horse-riding out of style. The car was faster, stronger, and easier to maintain. Of course horses are still used for recreation and sport, and you can hire a horse-and-carriage as a date night option, but virtually no one uses a horse as a daily mode of transportation.

Now we see fully self-driving cars are soon to be available to consumers. Many of the functionality is already there in some newer cars. Teslas can drive themselves on the highway and park themselves, and should soon be able to drive in the city. Already one of these cars is affordable to someone in the middle-class without too much financial strain, and they’ll only get cheaper as they’re more efficient to produce and they become more available to buy used.

There will definitely be some people resistant to making the change. A lot of people enjoy driving, some would rather stay in control instead of putting their life in the hands of a computer, though the computer will be much safer. I’m sure a lot of people liked and had emotional connections with their horses too, but the car won out. Eventually the utility of self-driving will put human-driving out of style. It’s smarter, safer, and gives you back the time you’d usually dedicate to driving. Of course they’ll still be used for recreation and sport, a plaything for the rich, but virtually no one will use one as a daily mode of transportation.

Monthly Resolutions

For 2020, I decided to do monthly resolutions instead of having one yearly resolution. I’ve been picking something new to try each month so I can experiment with different goals. I like the idea a lot more than having only one thing you make a big deal about changing each year.

With the New Year’s resolution, you might follow it for a month or two but a lot of the time you run out of steam and just let the goal fade away. You stop trying to better yourself again until the next year when you give it another go. I think a lot of the time we beat ourselves up when we slip up and then we let it go so we don’t have to face the failure anymore, even though it’s usually not a big deal. We also tend to set big goals for New Year’s resolutions, because we have a whole year to complete them. Then if we get a few months in and we haven’t made the progress we want, completing the goal seems more and more unachievable and scary, because now you need to make a year’s worth of progress in 9 months, and if you put it off more, 6 months, and so on. So then when we fail, it’s a big failure, and we feel even worse. One of the biggest problems I see with trying something for the entire year is even if you do make good on your progress, you don’t get the satisfaction of completing it until the year ends, and a year is a long time for most people to delay gratification, including me.

With the monthly resolution, each goal is made to be a lot more reasonable and attainable. You can focus on your goal for the month without pressuring yourself to be perfect about if for a lengthy period of time. At the end of the month, you can pat yourself on the back for doing a good job and renew your motivation for the next month. For the next month you can keep the same goal you had or you have the opportunity to go after new things. Conventional wisdom is that it usually takes three weeks to form a new habit, so a month is long enough to instill whatever your goal was into your routine. If it was going to the gym or cutting down on sugar you now know you have the willpower to make those changes. At the end of the month you can have a perspective switch that going to the gym isn’t something you’re making yourself do, or a punishment, it’s just something you do now. You’re someone who exercises. You’re someone who knows you’re able to turn down a sugary snack. Now you can take the pressure off yourself, and focus on improving yourself in a different way.

So what have I done for my own resolutions? For January I made the goals to write every day, and to not play video games unless I was playing with friends. I’ve wanted to get into the writing habit for a while, but have never been able to force myself to carve out the time. I only made the minimum requirement fifteen minutes so that I wasn’t intimidated to follow through each day. By not letting myself default my free time to video games, I forced myself to be more productive, and I was able to follow my writing goal really well. I wrote almost every day, and a lot of the time for much longer than fifteen minutes. Now that the month is over, it’s been a lot easier for me to continue to write and I’ve been continuing to do it daily for the most part.

In February I didn’t drink coffee in any form, but still allowed myself to have other sources of caffeine, like tea. One reason is I wanted to see what my body does if I’m still getting caffeine, but not from coffee. It also served as an exercise in self-denial, since I had been consuming around three to four coffee-based drinks a day. I noticed after I got through two weeks of no coffee, I felt clear-headed most of the time. I noticed my body would feel, not tired really, but bored. It’s like it’s just waiting for that quick go energy it’s used to but nothing is coming. In the third week of not drinking coffee, I started to really crave it. At first I thought to myself “two weeks has been enough, I could stop now.” But that was just me being weak. If this is actually an exercise in self-control then going through this harder point would be the point. I started drinking coffee again after the month was over, not as much as before, but at least a cup or two a day, and I immediately noticed the clear-headedness I was enjoying quickly went away. It pains me to say it, because I really like coffee, but I’m going to have to make caffeinated coffee a once a week treat. It’s such a clear improvement in my ability to think when I’m not on coffee that I can’t justify keeping my normal consumption. For March I bought an Excel course online and committed to learning it for at least half an hour a day, which I did.

I really like the variety and amount of skills I can work on with this method. I’m planning on cycling between different types of challenges like physical (biking, swimming), mental (meditating), nutrition(no snacks, fasting), and skill-building(magic tricks, learning a software). There’s a ton of stuff I’d like to work on and learn, but I won’t do anything well if I try and do it all at once. If I focus on one or two things at a time, I can actually learn each thing well and eventually get around to everything.